I was a happy camper. And, I think my body could finally chill and really feel how lousy one feels during chemo therapy. And, because of that I had to continue to rinse my mouth with Peridex, which gives me a very bad taste in my mouth. Last night I felt really scared. And now, I'm scared to resume life. And, I'm just scared. |
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My cancer is teaching me to do so. There's a laid back side, when I don't like to plan things in advance, and there's the ambitious side, when I want to fill up my itinerary and follow it. I think loving myself means honoring my feelings. And if someone hurts my feelings, I won't allow myself to be brainwashed into forgiving the other person. |
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I also felt that each of my cells was simply soaked in the liquid, unable to breathe, unable to reach out to me and talk with me. Now I feel as though the liquid is truly like dew drops and goes into each one of my bad cells and gently heals it. I developed a real liking for Hinduism, because I had to study comparitive religions in college. |
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Behram went through surgery and chemo for colon cancer as well a few years ago. He's always offered help. I don't like to inconvenience people, so I'm frugal about asking for help. For example, I've taken the train to Hopkins several times now when my brother is unable to take me. However, I needed a ride back from Hopkins yesterday after my seventh chemo. |
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Going back to California. Making new friends. I'd like to join the American Marketing Association and get involved in it. For example, I'd like to interview Steve Jobs, Roger McNamee, and others who fought off cancer about what they learned and what changes they made to thier psyche and totheir lives. |
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I also felt that each of my cells was simply soaked in the liquid, unable to breathe, unable to reach out to me and talk with me. Now I feel as though the liquid is truly like dew drops and goes into each one of my bad cells and gently heals it. I developed a real liking for Hinduism, because I had to study comparitive religions in college. |
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I was a happy camper. And, I think my body could finally chill and really feel how lousy one feels during chemo therapy. And, because of that I had to continue to rinse my mouth with Peridex, which gives me a very bad taste in my mouth. Last night I felt really scared. And now, I'm scared to resume life. And, I'm just scared. |
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My cancer is teaching me to do so. There's a laid back side, when I don't like to plan things in advance, and there's the ambitious side, when I want to fill up my itinerary and follow it. I think loving myself means honoring my feelings. And if someone hurts my feelings, I won't allow myself to be brainwashed into forgiving the other person. |
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I spoke to my uncle, Anand Gupta this morning.Anand mamaunderwent heart surgery several weeks ago in New York City. Bernie Siegel talks about cancer being a gift. My aunt Preeti lives in Pennsylvania and she has given me so much love. My mom who is vegetarian has learned to cook meat from him, so she can cook high-protein foods for me as well. |
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I finished my seventh chemo yesterday. However, the cut-off for chemo is 1000. This feels right to me due to the slow recovery of my white blood cells. Also, after my regular chemo sessions (at 100% dose) my body would feel drenched, just soaked in liquid. I want them to live out their whims and fancies. |
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I was a happy camper. And, I think my body could finally chill and really feel how lousy one feels during chemo therapy. And, because of that I had to continue to rinse my mouth with Peridex, which gives me a very bad taste in my mouth. Last night I felt really scared. And now, I'm scared to resume life. And, I'm just scared. |
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Behram went through surgery and chemo for colon cancer as well a few years ago. He's always offered help. I don't like to inconvenience people, so I'm frugal about asking for help. For example, I've taken the train to Hopkins several times now when my brother is unable to take me. However, I needed a ride back from Hopkins yesterday after my seventh chemo. |
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